Time to find a place for Barry to live
I am exhausted! Lack of sleep can get to a person. For weeks, Barry has been getting up many times in the night. He tries to shower and start the coffee. Usually he is okay with me sending him back to bed, but other times he gets really mad.
Deeper confusion sets in
A new medicine helps him sleep. He usually gets up around 4 a.m., and most of the time goes back to bed without too much of a fight. But now he can’t figure out how to work the shower and keeps flushing the toilet over and over again. I think he is mixing the toilet up with turning on the shower.
He can’t shave anymore either. And I noticed he drinks the mouthwash instead of spitting it out. Getting him dressed is hard because he is big and can’t help much. Putting socks on someone who doesn’t help is really hard, too. Sometimes at 5 a.m., I will get up, lay out his clothes and go back to bed. He slowly figures it out while I doze, hoping for just a little more sleep.
My big worry now is that my traveling for speaking engagements begins in February and continues through May. Last year Barry could take care of himself. Now a year later, there is no way I can leave him alone. Every morning I have to change his sheets.
He can’t make dinner for himself and leaves the door open even on the coldest days. I worry he will try to go out somewhere without a coat or gloves.
I know it’s time to find a safe place for him to live — and it breaks my heart! But I have to work to get out of debt and also for my mental health. I need to be who I am and the person that Barry was so proud of.